OP here again, 'cause people posted while I was typing my first reply:
>>1137412>To make magic work, you have to believe it.This was what inspired my first post and (renewed) interest into magic - I decided that I was tired of being full of doubt, of living in a rational, un-magical world, and then a little bit of psychological stress came and illustrated rather clearly to me just how much *my* reality (and fuck the rest) was controlled by my beliefs.
It was this starting point, in fact, that led me to Chaos Magic before
>>1137436mentioned it. However, I didn't have the names (more keywords) contained within until the post was made.
>>1137407I will be using a large, top-tier university's library, who will gladly request (and get) books from other libraries around the world if I, a student, ask.
Also, as I was browsing the other day, I found some books on the shelves dated from the 1600s. What the holy fuck, I was almost afraid to touch them, for fear they'd fall apart in my hands.
I am optimistic.