>>8407406Unfortunately I cannot, most of my friends seem like the strong types but when push comes to shove they all break easily. It's sad. But most women are like this.
>>8407429I'm not strong by default. I was very, VERY weak once. I've gone through a lot of stuff (molestation, violent, abusive and druggie father who beat us up all my life, then left us in half a million's debt and disappeared to a different country, general bad luck, out of schooling for 2 years because of my father's debts so am only starting college now while all my friends left me behind, boyfriend of 4 years cheated on me and left me a few weeks ago as I was going in the hospital to have tests done because there's something wrong with my liver/kidneys, so yeah when I needed him the most ahaha (this was only about a month ago) and is continually trying to start drama with me even though I have not said a word to him since.) That's just a few examples. I wasn't born strong. I was a total pushover, a weakling and very easily manipulated. Experiences forced me to start acting tougher, because how else can you deal with all the crap life throws at you? You should start acting the same, girl. It seems like life hasn't been kind to you either.
In terms of feeling bad for your father; well yes, obviously he must be still going through a rough time. But consider this; does HE care about what he's doing to YOU right now? If he is doing this then I can literally assure you he doesn't give a single fuck if it's affecting you right now, it's selfish and disgusting. I know he's your father and you care about him. But in the long run it's only going to make things worse and he doesn't care if it's affecting you or not. He literally doesn't care if you're upset and bad enough you are coming to 4CHAN for help so he can get his rocks off. Please consider that.
You are worth more than that and need to stand up for yourself. You might not think or believe it but you're much stronger than that.