l guess this is me mostly trying to figure out why l feel like this. l think typing this out will help organize thoughts and maybe get some encouraging feedback.

A few years back l got into a car accident. Long story short, there was fire, and l got third degree burns on my chest, one of my thighs, abdomen, forearms, back, and shoulders.

l was hospitalized and went through various treatments (skin grafts, and l have gels and creams to apply to help with scars and when they itch).

So, yeah, obviously l look a little beat up. The scarring looks kind of wrinkly/bumpy and is discolored. l don't feel that bad about any other of the scars except for the ones on my torso and arms, so l always wear long sleeved shirts.

l have to admit, l was really messed up for years after and didn't want to be involved in any relationships or anything. Most of friends were awkward around me and made me feel like l was different, a freak, ugly, you know the deal.

There was a girl whom l've known since elementary that l was crazy for before the accident. We're talking over ten years here. l had been working up the confidence to ask her to be my girlfriend and then bam. Everything l had worked up went down the tube and l felt like l didn't deserve her and that she'd think l was gross now.
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