>>8409570Well that does make a lot of sense, and I can understand why you're interested in something that is close like that. I jokingly call it being an ugly duckling, because even though you find yourself unatractive and meek it doesn't mean you won't find someone later. Plus, you said you weren't even in college yet so you have a long way to go to develop longer, more meaningful personal relationships as well as yourself, so don't think that this is going to be a forever thing. As time goes on, you'll find that your interests and personality can carry you as far if not farther than the way you look (and you're still cute, fuck these faggots) and that to someone out there, you're perfect (and probably to more than one).
So hold onto what you've got, be honest with yourself even though that might be hard at first, and see what happens. Stand up for yourself, even to him, because it isn't like he is going to stop caring about you if you protect yourself and what you want, especially because he is your father.
Either way, don't sell yourself short, you've got a long way to go so it seems... so hold your ground, your values, and your beliefs, and be strong about what they are both to yourself and to everyone else, and just see what happens later.
But I would still keep an eye on him...