>>476729861OP, you make the decision to stay with your abuser because u have been conditioned to do that by him for years, the same way a dog can be conditioned to salivate when it hears a bell.
Also, after years of abuse you no longer develop psychologically as a person and actually develop your own psychopathologies. In other words, your brain does not perform the same or even similar thought process as someone's brain who has not been abused for years.
Your master is a sick freak who uses psychological torture on people, my mother did the same thing to me. She "put on a show" with my step father multiple nights a week that I was forced to hear for years when I was 14 - 18. I believed that the fact I could hear her having sex was just an accident, even after I complained to her about it. She kept going and it made me feel guilty every time, like it was my fault for hearing what I heard. It was never an accident. My mother wanted me to suffer likely because she was angry at my father. I remember crying in my room with a semi- erection and feeling so guilty that I was hearing them.
Now that I am out of the abuse cycle I realize what was actually going on. I confronted my abuser but I still have extensive psychological damage. I cannot have an emotional connection with anybody. I experience dissociation around girls. I have trouble focusing. I have major depressive disorder and manic depression. I have a personality disorder, and I have PTSD when I try to have sex. These affects are PERMANENT!
This is a sick thread OP. You have been conditioned.