>>451886424>>I had my shit together, was causally dating, met girl, fell in love, got me to skip class, failed the semester. Got fired from job, didn't have money for next semester. Girl took care of me. Got new job, she quits hers. Gets prego. I didn't want kids. My genetics are not worth passing on. There is something wrong in my head. I've doomed my poor daughter. I have become my father. He di not want to be with my mom (still is and hates his life). I'm unemployed. I sleep in as much as possible. I can't even imagine getting another job. My girlfriend is sexually not attracted on to me. She likes girls more than men. Pretends to "love" me. Does not know love means caring about the other person. When I'm sad she yells in my face 'whats wrong with you". What hope to I have? Everything in my environment is poison. I can't leave her, child support would be crazy, doom her to sexual abuse (because she would move back to her moms) and drug abuse. My little girl would be white trash. What can I possibly hope for?Well you have a child, so you have to fucking man up for her sake. She depends on you and needs you.
As for school, see if you can re-apply and ask for some kind of hardship case, some schools can waive tuition. Or you get a very low cost loan. BUT MAKE SURE you get a degree where you can make some $.
In the meantime, get a fucking job. It doesn't matter what, just anything. Unemployment is a fucking cancer, you feel worthless, depressed. Being productive, even in a stupid job, is better than nothing.
Your wife is probably not a lesbian, she's probably bi like most women are. She just wants love and tenderness, and has got only shit from men.
She is probably afraid of your depression, which is why she yells "what's wrong with you". She doesn't understand it and it scares her.
START SMALL. Look at Craigslist for jobs, you have to try. Make a fucking effort for that little girl. YOU ARE HER DADDY, HER FATHER, she looks up to you.