I never got into heroin, tried it a few times but could not get myself to inject myself. Had another junkie assist, but I could not put my safty in a junkies hands. These days im insufflating meth, or an analog of it, daily. I know its bad, i know its destroying me, but i helps me. It gave me control of my thoughts, something I never could before. I have seen therapists, psychiatrists, you name it and I have tried it. This was easy, shove some powder up your nose and the anxiety goes away, the hatred goes away, the contempt for myself disappears. I faught for a decade to be happy, as far as im concerned content is an acceptable alternative. OP it is always a pleasure to hear someone was able to get out of the lifestyle, dont you dare come back. Tell your story, fuck the bullshit from people who do not have the perspective to be criticizing you. Ignorance is bliss, but it is still ignorance and unless you have been there, you cannot understand what its like to fall into drug addiction, what its like to have an intimate relationship with a chemical you know better than yourself. From us here at the bottom, we salute you OP, and the magnificent bastard you are.