>>38108867Well, I always knew I was more masculine than other girls even when I was little, and for that I was picked on tons for not wanting to talk about N'Sync or whatever boy band was popular and instead chose to kill snails with the boys.
Really, for me at least, it was the small things that added up. Things like "You shouldn't go alone since you're a young lady," despite the fact that I carried a knife with me at all times from 15 onwards. "You should wear make-up if you want to make a good impression at the interview," "You shouldn't be afraid to show more skin, you'll never get a boyfriend that way," "You need to be more polite, men can get away from that, but you're expected to be polite as a lady," "Girls don't do taxidermy, that's a guy-thing," "I know you like to lead, but you're just going to embarrass your boyfriend like that, they don't like for women to protect them," things like that always got to me. It's hard to explain, but for me the way that I saw myself and the way that I wished to be seen could never be reflected properly with a females body. I never connected to the female lifestyle and had no desire to achieve feminine beauty, and as long as I was female I would always be held to and judged by female expectations, which frustrated me to no end. I'm sorry I can't really give you any advice, but if you're unsure maybe you should just give it a trial run. Binding and packing doesn't seem like much, but for me it gives me confidence and makes me feel more comfortable since I feel more "at home" with myself, so maybe it'll do something for you.