>>147949You're, what, 20? Younger? You'll get some perspective eventually. Let me ask you this: when you think of shit you did in the throes of your mid-teens, do you ever think of stuff you're embarrassed about? I assure you, you will look back on the extreme, nonsensical reactions of your first relationships the same way.
When my girlfriend of 4 years cheated on me in college, I threw a fit, made her sleep on the couch for months, tracked the guy down and broke his face against a wall, and made myself miserable for months if not years afterward.
Now? I see many things. I see that I should have broken that relationship off earlier, and I see that the cheating was at least partially my fault, and I see that I should not have reacted with violence. Shit is never as simple as you want it to be.
That girl had emotional problems, and that guy was definitely a little shitweasel. I was also no fucking prince. And now, years later? I don't give a single fuck. None of it was worth the pain I put myself through. I am in a real, honest, good relationship, and that ex does not talk to me and I wish she did because I used to love her and that never really goes completely away. I don't ever really want to see her again, though. And all in all, I'm mostly glad I'm not in jail for assaulting that guy. It felt good at the time, but prison sucks ass.
You think things are simple. You'll grow out of that.