>>3396519I know how you feel mate, but trust me when I saw that it isn't worth it.
I've tried to take my own life four times, and every time I fail, I realize more and more just how much life means to me, how much my friends care for me, and how much I care for them.
I had it really hard as a kid, my mom beat me every time her mood would randomly change from a caring mother to a violent bitch, and my dad was never around to stop her or do anything about it, and even if he was he'd only yell at her and would never talk to me about it.
I guess what I'm getting at here is: yes, life sucks, it can be hard, cruel and downright violent.
But you can't let that negative outside force beat you into submission.
You can't let it beat you down and force you to harm yourself in order to dull one pain with another.
My sister took her own life about four months ago, and shortly after her funeral there I was again, pressing a sharpened pocket knife to my wrist, ready to cut so deep I could never wake up again.
And then a realization hit me like a ton of bricks.
Why was I letting something so cruel, so fucking horrible change what I wanted to be, what I was?
I dropped that knife, and called my psychologist on my phone, and in an hour I had checked myself in for treatment at a local Psych Ward.
When life was at its worst, and everything looked grim, that was when I decided to take control of it.
That was when I started to fight back,
I hope that you can do the same.
Don't take your life, because, in the end, it's all you have left.