So what it's like not having a face of a model?

I'm not sure whether it is worth living a life where you know you will never be loved by an attractive female, you will never be swooned over, getting free passes due to good looks and generally be considered a better person.

Seriously, I wish I could get plastic surgery to make my face from slightly above average to good looking, but it is impossible. All I want in my life is to be good looking, but I hate my face and for a good reason - I don't look like a model at all. I am not a "good looking guy". Fuck this. I knew a model, she parties all the time, goes on photoshoots, has fun while I have to work in my cubicle despite being the most fashionable guy in this hick ass town and having a fit body.

Fuck this, fuck. Just fuck. I don't see how I will live through the next week. I see nothing ahead of me, only dull, grey office. No love, no women...the biggest problem is that I'm attracted to good looking girls, but all of them want a good looking guy...shit.