>>9327833I have pretty much had no friends most of my life, just loose acquaintances. I worked hard at school, went to uni, got good results, go to the gym, got a great body, etc. My parents are very pleased with that kind of stuff, as are any other "adults" or people in a position of responsibility like uni tutors.
BUT if I could go back I would definitely do things differently. I would hang out with friends more. I would have got drunk more. I would have gone to more parties. I would have overindulged with tasty food. I would have taken drugs. I would have cared more about girls and sex instead of grades and career.
I have had a taste of those things recently, and it made me realise how I have wasted my life a bit. And hanging around the kind of hedonistic people who do that shit and have no inhibitions and did shit at school and now work at McDonalds and are starting to get overweight... well those people are happy, and they are having fun. I am not happy, and I am not having fun.
I am not saying you guys should forget about working hard or anything, I still think people should. I'm not sure what I'm saying. I guess.... if I could go back now I would do things differently is all I'm saying. Perhaps get a better balance.
The people I'm thinking of who spent the last 5 years drinking, taking drugs, having sex and not paying attention at school. They do not wish they had studied hard like me. I'm just feeling disillusioned because everyone said this was what you're supposed to do and they were not correct.