>be 8
>live with grandparents and my older brother (13)
>grandparents function as my parents
>ever since I could remember I would shower with my brother (had some phobias, would never be alone in a room)
>when I was 6 we started giving each other "massages" in the bathtub, which basically consisted of me sitting on him (with his dick poking my ass) while he gives me a back rub, and then I'd get off him and give him a penis rub, i.e stroked his dick
>used to do this every day
>be 8
>he told me to sit on him so he'll give me a back rub
> I agreed
>about to sit on him
>he tells me to wait
>he took butter, as in the dairy product, and used it smeared it on his dick
>then held me and positioned me so his dick will penetrate me while sitting
> I awkwardly moved away quickly and sat on him, with his dick sliding away, too scared (I guess) to say anything
>he lifted me a bit, and then just thrusted into me
>I don't remember any pain, just a weird pressure/pleasure feeling
>told him I don't want a massage (I knew what's going on is wrong)
>he said he already started, and you can't stop a massage half-way
>I said I'll tell grandpa
>he said it's just a massage like every day
>rubbed my back while thrusting in and out
>I distinctly remember he hugged me really close, and used a lot of force while thrusting, then came it felt really good
>later that night, my grandpa was putting me to bed, he would stay with me until I fell asleep
>told him about what my brother did
>he made sure I'm being serious
>I guess he didn't really trust me, or didn't want to believe it
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