>>2078177Aww, I think that's sweet.
I've always been considered "the smart one" when in a group. I've not been to uni, though. I know very little. I'm emotionally driven, impulsive, and idealistic. This makes me rather irrational. I still hold a somewhat firm grasp on reality, though I need to step back. So, I hold some Potential but live up to none of it. Nobody discussed Philosophy, Astronomy, Physics, or anything near that. Of course I sound smart for being pensive when the subjects of discussion fall on petty gossip and "entertainment"
it's frustrating because I don't feel very smart at all
I just want to feel intimidated by his Actual brilliance. I want to try my hardest to keep up and still get lost. This would be met, not with arrogance, but with a small smile and encouragement. It can be a pretty involved fantasy but basically, I want a normal, caring, affectionate relationship where we can play vidya or smoke a bowl and watch It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia one moment an he might ask how I'm doing on my "assignment" the next. His passion is a must. He can't just be smart, he has to be really enthralled by knowledge. His desire to push me, drive me to his high standards, would make me feel really cared for. His desire to mold me met with my desire to make him proud would be met with steady growth and progress on both ends. He might just learn from his hand in my personal development.
*sigh* I'd really like to sit, quietly, at a truly intelligent man's feet to observe him when he's really pensive. Especially if he's still pretty young.
Pipe dreams