>>13612877Yeah, I know.
Unfortunately I'd only just stopped being blimpmode when I met her, was still trapped in the fat man mentality, plus I needed surgery for pubertal gyno that had never gone away (but I didn't realise until losing weight that I'd even had it in the first place), was full of antidepressant medication and university was treating me really badly. Had so many chances to give her the dick, took none of them due to hangups, insecurities and generally being beta as fuck.
Worst part is that just before I met her I had this weird and highly-detailed dream that I was in a long-term relationship with a Japanese-German girl. Seriously fucked with my head when dreamgirl walked up to me in the university bar and asked me my name out of the blue.
No point worrying over things you can't change. Live laugh love ♥